Here is the censored chapter 20 XD
** Memento Mihi - Remember my **
Pairing: S / C
Warnings: Yaoi, violence
Recommendation: Suitable for Mature audience * lol *
Disclaimer: Final Fantasy belongs to me and unfortunately I do not charge for it. XD
Note: Cloud gets a second chance to make his life right here and possibly avert a catastrophe. What he does not know: the reasons to give him this chance is not quite so noble ...
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Chapter 20 - Amor (Love)
The corridors of the Shinra building narrowed, turned and took strange shapes and colors of clouds perspective. He had great trouble to preserve the orientation, as well as his balance and not to run against one of the walls.
Presumably these hallucinations were the blows he had cashed by Moris. His head and muttered his skin looked wet in some places. A concussion and perhaps even increased blood loss, but he wanted to examine yourself, or even want to stay. His legs would not automatically come to a halt, he had on the control his body has long since lost. The adrenaline, the pain was soft which certain, now his actions.
The boy was on the run for the second time the same day. If that was so he would go into the Guinness Book of Records for chronic cowards. The flower was hidden but miraculously still in his breast pocket, but looked quite battered, but could not take care of them with the necessary courage.
/ / Forgive me, Aerith, you've wasted this beautiful plant to me .. / /
Cloud felt like the last hypocrite. What he had said earlier for Mori, came from the heart, would have honestly can not and yet he could not stand by his words when he saw that person, they should never have been heard.
/ / At least not in this way .. / /
for the boy was by far the most terrible confession of love, that humanity had ever heard. As simple and wretched as argued in a soap opera, that he wondered why Sephiroth was not broken out on the spot in laughter. On the other hand, the General was not the type for such outbursts, and mocked rather well in the interior of the silly little country boy and his cute little life story.
/ / You hold me now safe for completely insane. My first panic attack during our struggle and now a confession of love .. / /
Buy Clouds gathered ideas in the brain, he could talk out of this situation, should it ever want to confront Sephiroth with it. He might say, for example, that he had struck his head and said some weird crap. It was therefore only hope that the man would buy him this story too.
/ / I was so determined to save what could be saved after I ran away from the training, but thanks to Moris I have made everything worse ...//
the corridors, through which rushed the boy matched, so much so that he no longer knew exactly where he was. Most of all he would run into his room, jumped into his bed and crawled under the covers, sealed off from the rest of the world, alone in his misery, so he could wake up the next morning and find that was all just a bad nightmare.
/ / Do I wish this is not always / /
Cloud's feelings had decided to keep to himself, rolling back her, but now they were out. Of all the species of a confession of love, which he had imagined, this was certainly the last in which he wanted to reveal his feelings.
/ / How did he ever found me / /
Sephiroth truly had a flair for have it, or it was the Jenova cells in the boy that cried out for their master and it is navigated to, like bees with a Sweet Scent.
/ / just a shame that they can help me not to bring him to love me .. / /
It had not worked in a past life and did not see any Cloud reason why it should work in this life. The General was as elusive as ever. A dream, a deity, he laid down his life at the feet, but never something that he could touch, with whom he might eventually be on the same level.
Suddenly the boy heard a roaring in his ears and staggered, lost pace in his endless course. He could just barely in time to support a wall when he was dizzy and blacked out.
/ / No! Not fainting / /
However irrational it was, the dark cloud tried to drive around him in which he turned down wildly with his arms. However, unlike air, which could zufächern when a was hot, the black was constant from view not flick off. In his futile efforts The boy slammed his hands repeatedly against the wall on which he declined, adding to additional pain, but it did not matter he was no longer lucid.
/ / Go! Let me! / /
The darkness seemed to grab his wrists and pinning him down to do, just like Moris before. Cloud struggled with her, but she was just not up to him, no matter how much he wriggled around. No, the pressure around his wrists even stronger so that he gasped for breath and was totally immobile.
/ / What? / /
His one-sided battle came to an end when he felt a warm breeze on his face. It gave way to a natural curiosity. He felt something silky ensnared his cheek and covered a little soft, but strangely hard his lips.
/ / An Angel / /
Cloud did not know how he came to the idea. He gave the strange lips, even if they would be simply taken as part of his imagination and allowed himself to them with some force push against the wall, which supported him.
/ / A real change from the usual visions ...//
What seemed to take hours for the boy, were in reality only a few seconds and before he knew it, left from this wonderful lips of him. Miraculously, the darkness gave way to manifest from view and an image is always sharper in front of his eyes.
/ / Black .. Silver ... Bright green ... wait! / /
hit by a flash of cloud tore her eyes and stared at his opponent, in which there is no one other than his personal God acted.
"Sephiroth ?..", whispered the boy, his voice sounded very hoarse.
It could only be a dream. His pulse was racing and his heart pounding broke the silence of the corridor. Cloud did not dare to blink, because he had the impression that the picture which presented itself, would dissolve immediately.
A clad in a leather glove Hand stretched out to him, but whether it ever reached him, the boy could not say he lost consciousness at that moment.
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It was not difficult Clouds tracking record. Uncoordinated His footsteps echoed in the empty corridors loud enough back so that he could run after the general problem. In his sensitive hearing, he would have the boys but also can find even if that would be slipped.
/ / I should to you by moving chains to hold you from fleeing, Cloud. It is a bad habit .. / / Joked Sephiroth to himself
It was the second time that day that the boy had been looking for the comment, and both times seemed the general of the reason for this be. If he really cherished such feelings for the man, but he would actually trigger the opposite reaction from the cadets.
/ / I will not you smart, Cloud, but that is nothing new .. / /
Sephiroth finally reached his goal and found the boy leaning on a wall before, not just in the best condition. He immediately suspected that Cloud had probably sustained a concussion, because he seemed nothing more to see and waved frantically around with his arms, so he wanted to get rid of anything. This led only to the fact that he himself inflicted even more damage.
Internally shaking his head Sephiroth walked up to him and grabbed the wrists of the boy to him from his inevitable self-destruction trip to get back down, but as so often with people in panic, Cloud could be the new situation, not make friends easily and struggled even more against them.
usually would be a slap in the face enough to bring him back to his senses, as he was, however, breached the head, was the General not risk aggravating the situation. Thus, he would have given the situation access to more gentle means and the only thing that occurred to him at the moment, was a scene from a movie he had once seen with Zack forced together.
/ / Why not? I doubt whether it makes you something, Cloud. / /
Amused Sephiroth leaned in front and squeezed the boy on his lips. He used the moment simultaneously to activate a healing materials, which he took exception with him, to cadets to keep from death, they should fall terrorists on their way to the Hall on the victim.
was expected, the body of the boy immediately stopped and the General remarked almost a smile, that cloud was very docile. It seemed to please him and he was open, probably because he did not know who stood before him.
The healing immediately showed its effect and Sephiroth watched as the view of the young cadets became more focused. The temporary blindness and eventually more He stared at him as if he had fallen from the clouds.
"Sephiroth? .." Not more than a whisper and the General immediately jumped in front, as a cloud momentarily unconscious collapsed. He lifted the boy into his arms and took advantage of passive, that nothing that really weighed.
/ / You should structure training more seriously, Cloud .. / wore /
Sephiroth the boy to his apartment and laid him on his bed, where he let him rest. They had at least still talking to himself. There was obvious need for clarification about what Cloud had earlier confided Moris and here he had fewer opportunities to press before the confrontation. Strangely, attended the General, that would just be the first reaction of the boy. Seemed to flee with him to be on the agenda.
Now that was supplied for now Cloud, Sephiroth took the time to wake up that would Zack and called to tell him that he had found the boy that he was fine and that eliminates the invaders were. The unexpected incident, he was out there. It was something he wanted first to clarify in person with Cloud.
Zack was shocked by the news that Moris was one of the terrorists and also criticized the General about his apathy, when those distances reported this finding. Sephiroth was listening but not really, as so often when the Soldier attaches to endless speeches about his character to swing.
He choked Zack immediately when he heard faint moans from his bedroom, which indicates the Cloud woke up and went up to him to look after things.
"Where am I heard he ?..", mumble the young cadets.
"In my apartment. There you should already be known. "Amused, noted the general, that Cloud winced. Obviously he did not expect an answer.
Sephiroth granted the boy time to compose herself and used it again to yourself to see those who look at him more closely. We eventually got thrown every day, such a confession of love to the head.
He was used to get tons of fan mail that he only seldom read and often simply left to his secretary, or to get on the road after languishing glances thrown. He had never had problems aufzufischen pleasure for the night, they threw him literally to his neck when he surrendered only the slightest sign of interest.
the sentence, I love you 'had, it is one probably more times than anyone else in the world, but it was never more than an empty phrase. A spell that would last only entertaining, he simply ignored. Normally he would have dismissed Clouds confession also as something of the sort, but there was a difference.
The naive way in which the boy had expressed his feelings, said much of what had raised in his previous behavior mystery to the general. The looks, his actions, his reactions Sephiroth could already show that Cloud felt more for him than just simple admiration. The interview with Zack and confirmed its acceptance of the very words of the cadets it sealed.
Because the General had met the boy approached, he could dismiss his declaration of love is not simply a pipe dream, but It sounded too authentic, too honest, if you counted along whole Clouds behavior.
Sephiroth sat down at the edge of the bed to the boy. The prize question was how he would deal with this revelation. He mostly did not have time to get involved in a relationship, but on the other hand, it appeared as Cloud too interesting to him to get rid of easily.
He was like a new area that it was exploring a new challenge and new responsibilities. The depressed attitude of the cadets was not lost on him. As if he was just waiting for a negative reaction to obtained, which would destroy it completely.
/ / I mean you really so much that a refusal on my part would commence the end of your existence, like you said, Cloud / /
Sephiroth was used to control of people have. The entire military was subject to him and obey his commands. The boy was no exception as a cadet. However, this was a new form of power over a person with whom he had never set apart as it was based primarily on an emotional level.
to someone unconditionally Sun deliver with naive confidence as the sole support, the General could never imagine himself to himself. The consequences could be devastating. A weakness that could throw off one stop after it was first. He was fascinated by that cloud this risk as readily received.
Sephiroth grabbed a glass of water, which stood on the bedside table and handed it to the boy, who stared at it at first, but then gratefully accepted, with reddened his cheeks. At that moment, Cloud seemed so fragile. As a puppy, waiting for the impending censure.
/ / How can anyone, by itself is already completely helpless to offer is so open, like on a platter / /
It made no sense to speculate about it longer. Thus, the general would never know the answer. He had to understand the choice is to successfully engage and learn so Cloud, to someday might even be so, or to have it.
He did not need long to think. Sephiroth's mind was probably already determined, the boy when he first faced.
/ / I see she wants Cloud, your love .. / /
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It was not dark, but still not quite light, as Cloud opened his eyes, so it was probably early in the morning. His muscles were tight and he moaned softly, as he stretched. It took a while to the new and unfamiliar environment for knowledge was and realized that it seemed to him yet known.
"Where am I ?..", he muttered quietly to himself
" In my apartment. There you should already be known. "Frightened by the answer, with which he had not expected, the boy winced. Sephiroth's voice, Sephiroth's apartment. Only now he remembered what had happened at night and it froze.
Cloud had made the man inevitably a love confession after he had been kissed by him, and had fainted. He wondered, however, where all his injuries had been when it was no dream.
More interesting, however, was asked why he was in the house of the General. Certainly nothing that would want to have to do with him, now that the boy had soiled it with his pathetic outburst.
/ / Maybe he wants me to apologize to him? / /
Certainly it would be appropriate, but Cloud did not dare the silence that crept in between them has to break and he did not trust his own voice, afraid that they would fail. He did not just before the man burst into tears, would ask him best, forget everything simple. A refusal could not survive.
/ / Then I'd rather an impossible dream, as a direct rejection .. / /
Suddenly Sephiroth held him a glass of water and cloud point was uncertain whether he can drink or pour over your head should. Thanks, he took the drink then, however, and cost a sip. The cool water has a calming and sobering.
He wished, however, that the General would say anything to relieve the tension for good. At gladly he would feel his lips back on his own, but this fantasy would probably never be true again be. Why it had to be so fleeting? Actually, he should now be able to die happy, but he was always unsaturated still wanted more. He had tasted a forbidden fruit and now he wanted her completely. A typical phenomenon.
/ / I have to say something or I turn desperately sought by ...// Cloud for words. How naive he was to believe that he could improvise. Perhaps it would have worked if Mori would not have been, but now his repertoire had been exhausted formally.
"I'm sorry .. I should not have run away, " the boy was subdued by itself, however, was not at all satisfied with his statement and Sephiroth did not move.
"I would have to exert myself more ... I .. I wanted to disappoint you, and what I have said for Mori I mean, I-"stammered the boy now uncontrollably like a waterfall in front of him, without looking up to the General, but was interrupted when his lips again and pressed his lips against his briefly sealed.
silent as a fish, he looked on now as the man sat up gallantly and again the boy looked amused.
"You run the risk of backsliding into panic, Cloud.", He explained his actions as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
"But ... how?" The boy did not know what he should ask first. Sephiroth had just kissed him and at the second time that day. He had expected in every response on the part of the general, but not guaranteed.
"Nothing, 'Cloud. Or will you tell me that you're not with your feelings? "
The man looked at him deliberately in the eye and the boy was mesmerized. Of course, he stood behind his feelings, but it was still not that they needed to be answered, or did Sephiroth to suggest something about.
/ / No, can I only imagine ...//
Cloud shook his head.
"What I said was the truth."
He was waiting to be laughed at as it should be and it looked resigned to the mattress, but a hand was laid on his own and lifted it. The General drew him towards her and the boy was forced him to look into his beautiful eyes.
"Are you out again to take my decisions for me, Cadet Strife?"
First Cloud startled by the sudden formal address, but then he reworked the sentence precisely and knew immediately what he meant. The boy had gone out from the beginning of the worst and expect no less. Sephiroth wanted to say about that he made a mistake had?
"No, sir."
The General smiled at the lie he had obviously realized they did not comment, however.
"Then come." Prune Cloud. Sephiroth had his head tilted to one side and had a formal invitation, but the boy did not know how he should respond to the gesture. His instinct told him that he should fall into the arms of the man. After all, he was asked. His mind, however, warned him that it could only be a joke.
The look in the eyes of his counterpart, however, was decisive in that cloud and dropped all concern him more stressed and vulnerable, as might have been necessary to cast the neck. This action in turn elicited a chuckle to the General that the boy could feel vibrating in his chest.
Cloud did not dare to think or breathe. He grabbed Sephiroth, as if his life depends on it, as he would immediately fall into an endless hole, when he let go, his face buried in the gap between the leather and skin, as the Jacket was cut so far. The fragrance, for which he had longed for so long got him in the nose and beguiled him. A mixture of mint, lavender and vanilla plus just Sephiroth. [1]
Silky, silver streaks flowed through his fingers as he held his arms wrapped around the neck of the General. That could make it all by himself, without protesting. He tried wegzuschubsen not the boy, or to break away from the embrace. No, he replied, in which he had deleted his hands soothingly Clouds back.
trust only after a while the Cadet to breathe regularly again and relaxed, and his grip. pushed away the risk of being banned and he seemed to sigh, as if all the weight of the world has been lifted from his shoulders.
"Better?" Sephiroth seemed to have noticed the change and burned the boy when he finally allowed his mind to process, in what a position he was, but he nodded cautiously. This is the man drew a smile again.
He grabbed Clouds shoulders and slowly separated himself from him. That heat, however, wanted the newly acquired not to miss and was reluctant to back the separation. Auto crept over him, the fear that there is something unique acted, what he would never get to experience again, but Sephiroth's action, which followed, left all fear disappear.
He leaned gracefully down to the boy and included his lips with his. Today, for the third time and the cadet was grateful for the fact that the hands of the man offered him support, otherwise he would be tilted away from the tingling sensation to the back.
The General took his time and licked with his tongue seductively Clouds over his lips as he would want to entice them to open up for him and that did not resist the temptation for long. Purposeful dipped the tongue of the man in the mouth of the boy, they explored how an inquisitive child who had received a brand new toy and wanted to try out every function of it.
Cloud remained passive, not daring to move, to break the spell and not Sephiroth not to disturb. His heart fluttered, and made in the air and he said to be radiant light, as a star on a clear night sky. Satisfied, he sighed into the kiss.
/ / You do not know how happy you make me .. / /
As a sign of the General broke one of his hands from the shoulder of the boy and ran with it on its head, by his unruly hair, let it rest there, and expressed himself against Cloud to make the kiss will be more intense. Instinctively threw his arms back to that neck of the man up in his silver mane and delighted in the feel of velvet and silk.
Finally Sephiroth finished his task and broke away again from the boy to him to reflect on it. So when he would wait for something. What exactly it was here, did not Cloud, but he felt his whole body with just what he wanted himself.
"Please, do not stop .." whispered the cadet full of longing.
"Are you sure?" How many times he had that conversation in his dreams went through? Cloud never would have thought it possible that they would become reality. He was in his whole life was not as safe as now.
"Yes, I've waited so long, hoping I ... so long .. "The words spiked in his mouth when he noticed the playful smile of his opponent. Just as in the Midgar plateau, as they met the pack Kalm-wolves. The eyes narrow slightly, like a cat, which had targeted their prey and already full of anticipation to snack on her.
"Then we do not waste time on." Cloud swallowed. The world was suddenly only from Sephiroth and him, everything else is irrelevant. He felt as if he had been invited to a hidden temple for the canonization.
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Sephiroth looked at the peacefully sleeping, blonde bundle in his arms for a while and let go of the events of the last time through the head. If someone have it two years ago, when he to the cadets for the first time in his office faced, would have said that now he would lie in his bed, he would have laughed in the face of the person. Yes, laughed.
The boy was anything but Soldier material, he was insecure, shy and brave but in his own way and captivating. Embarking on him, was pleased the General easier as he himself believed, and cloud response to that of relief and joy that he has not refused to sprout just had that spark within him something. Something new, not the usual indifference, and he hoped that this strange feeling would not subside.
Absent was deleted Sephiroth his fingers through the golden hair of the sleeping cadets. He had given the boy what those desires most, like so many people before too, but he felt even then not as empty as usual that night was not a pure execution of, fan service was'.
/ / I think it was the right decision .. / /
Cloud He missed a last kiss on the forehead, had noticed the boy no longer likely, and laid himself to rest.
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tbc ..
[1] This is the mixture of Jean Paul Gaultier Le Male 'XD I love the scent and follows along with Seph's ne Heartbreaker Combo XDDD
What can I say except: Finally! You deserve XDD and I let them even be happier ... for a while XDD * fg *
comments are as always welcome! . ^ ^
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